Lonely Girl

October 7th, 2025

Just a girl. A girl in her 20s. A girl confused with life. A girl in deep loneliness.

Your 20s are suppose to be fun. Is what I thought. Instead it feels like a fucking tornado is about to take me out any second. Sometimes I wish something bad would happen so I had something to blame. In reality that would cause me more stress then all the minor stressors of life is causing me. I saw a post about how Glossier was just a blog at first. Then just now I asked Chatgpt, as one does, what classes I would have to take if I wanted a business degree. I’m going to refer to Chatgpt as Charlie. Charlie told me English and writing as the first subject. That sparked something in my brain that made me think about the blog Glossier started. Our brains are so interesting sometimes. I feel like I have 20 tabs open at all times. Ok more like 100. Sometimes I just want to be able to close them all and chuck the computer in my brain across the room. First blog and I’m word vomiting and going in all different directions. That’s ok I’m new here. Anyways I feel like a blog could be good for me to get it all out. Maybe somebody will find this and relate or maybe I can look back on this one day and read about all of the struggles and good things I was going through. I want to make this blog to help myself process my thoughts as well as help other people who may be struggling in their 20s. I keep thinking I wish I was just 30 with my life figured out in a house with my husband and kids. I long for those days. However, I am going to long for the days I am in right now one day. I will look back on these days and hopefully appreciate all that I struggled through and the journey that I went on. I have no idea where my life is going to take me and that is the fun part. However, it creates anxiety and fear of the unknown. What if all my dreams don’t come true. I try and try to be positive, but sometimes those negative thoughts creep in. It is something I am actively trying to change. I am also trying to remind myself that all thoughts aren’t true. We think 1,000 thoughts a day. Some negative, some positive, some fake, some true. Overall my 20s have been quite a roller coaster in every department of my life. Right when I think I start to get a grip my hand gets slippery. I’m so focused on the future sometimes it takes away from the present moment. It’s hard when these are the years to make all of the decisions that are going to affect us for the rest of our lives. Sometimes it makes me feel paralyzed and just decide to not make any decisions. Sometimes it feels like there’s too many options and there’s so many people online telling you to do this and to do that. Sometimes I feel like it clouds my judgment. Social media can be super overwhelming with all the options. I just want to be want to live my life freely and in peace. Taking it day by day, step by step. One day I will get there. All I can do right now is have faith in myself and in the journey. If you are struggling in your 20s you are not alone and we will get through this together.

Thank you for reading loveys!

Hugs & Kisses, Jessie